Stöckchen

Erklärung : Man wirft ein Stöckchen einer Person zu die dann die Fragen beantwortet und das Stöckchen dann an den nächsten Blog zuwirft.
Ich hab das Stöckchen von meinem liebsten Schwesterherz bekommen.

Warum bloggst du?

Good question! Normally, I post a new blog when I am really emotional. When life is good and bad.

Warum lesen andere Leute deinen Blog?

I guess to see how messed up I am

Stehst du morgens früh auf oder bleibst du solange liegen wie es geht?

Getting up! The last couple of days, I have actually enjoyed sleeping in until 7 am. Normally, I can’t wait to get out of my bed. Oh, that sounds bad…

Wieviele Wecker hast du?

I have 3 alarm clocks. During the week, the first one goes off at 4:25 am with a normal ring tone. The second one at 4:30 am with music and the third at 4:35 am with music as well. I am normally pretty good in getting up, but I used to be worst. Tine knows…

Frühstückst du?

Whenever I have school I normally don’t eat breakfast, but in the summer I eat breakfast whenever one of the kids wakes up. So that makes 5 breakfasts.

An wen wirfst du das Stöckchen weiter und wieso?

To Jan. It’s time for him to write a new blog. He hasn’t posted one in a while.

People person

Two things that I’ve come to realize (again) in the last few days and where God really needs to work on me and change me. 1. I can become really jealous. I haven’t really figured out why exactly I get that jealous , but I know that’s not good/healthy; and most of all: it’s not from God! I don’t get jealous of other people’s possessions, but more of relationships. I have been trying to figure out why I am feeling that way; and I found out that it’s related to #2: I am a people person! I want to have my own family some day! I want to have kids some day… many kids! I absolutely need people in my life! In a way that’s a good thing and a blessing. I know that God created us to connect to other people, and I think that he also gave us this need for other people in our lives. But it gets dangerous if all our happiness and life fulfilment is depending on other people that we do or do not have in our life. I find myself in the same situation over and over again, where I make myself so depend on how other people act towards me and how much time they spend with me. I can spend hours and hours with people, and I am really blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life,  but the second I am by myself I feel alone… I know that those feelings are not healthy and I have been praying that God would help me to realize that his presence is fully enough for me! Today in Predlude, Kyle talked about how it’s important that we focus on where we run to and not what we run from. That is so true! Too often, I read or study God’s word just that I know how to prevent sin in my life. Instead, my focus and motivation for a greater intimacy with God  should be on what is ahead (what I run to) : Jesus Christ! Instead of dwelling in the past and what I am running from, my focus should be on what is ahead! „Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.“ (Isaiah 43:18,19) Another verse that seems to be my verse for the last few weeks is Psalm 51:10 „Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.“ If I would have to pick a verse that describes best the last 6 years of my life and that has challenged me the most, it would absolutely be that verse. I don’t know if I will ever be able to live up to it or if I will at some point not be struggling with it, but rightnow God is confronting me with this verse over and over again. That’s good! Even though, sometimes I feel overwhelmed by those feelings, I know that God will also provide a way out of it. He will work out all things for the good!

Giving the best

Unless we are willing to give up good things for Jesus Christ, we have no realization of Whom He is. ‘But really I cannot give up things that are quite legitimate!’ Then never mention the word love again in connection with Jesus Christ if you cannot give up the best you have for Him. This is the essential nature of love in the natural life, otherwise it is a farce to call it love, it is not love, but lust; and when we come to our relationship with Jesus Christ, this is the love He demands of us.

No love of the natural heart is safe unless the human heart has been satisfied by God first.

The one characteristic of love is that it thinks of nothing for itself, it is absorbed in God.

Love is not measured by what it gets, but by what it costs, and our relationship to Jesus Christ can never be on the line of, ‘Why shouldn’t I do this?’ Our Lord simply says, ‘If any man will be My disciple, those are the conditions.’

Oswald Chambers

Personal Bubble

I think, the older we get, the bigger our „personal bubble“ also gets. Everyone of us has his or her own „personal bubble“ that defines our personal space and shows other person how close we’ll let them get to us. When I get around the kids I can see how my „personal bubble“ disappears. Boundaries that I thought would be important to me, all of the sudden don’t seem to be  important anymore or I don’t care about my „personal bubble“ anymore: Taking kids with me into the bathroom, sharing sandwiches that have already been smushed three times, cleaning the kids mouths with my own spit because there are no kleenexes around (by the way, I hated that when my mom used to that to me when I was a child). Yesterday, Luke and I were jumping on the trampoline and it was one of these moments again when my „personal bubble“ becomes so unimportant. While we were eating our popsicles on the trampoline, Luke would take bites of his popsicle in his mouth, suck all the juice out if it until it turned all white and didn’t have any flavor left, and he would give it me and say: „HERE Ramona, now you can eat it.“ It’s so funny, because he was so serious while he said that. It was the most normal thing in the world for him. The fact that I automatically took the pieces and and ate it might be even more staggering for some people, but for me it was so normal. I think being around kids helps me not to take myself too serious and to enjoy the small important things of life. Surely, there are also times when I love my „personal bubble“ and I think it’s important to have one, but I don’t want to miss „big Lukey dinosaur hugs“, even when his hands are full of jelly and chocolate.

Running the Race

„Taken in a spirit of trust, even loneliness contributes to the maturing of character, even the endurance of seperation and silence and that hardest thing of all, uncertainty, can build in us a steady hope.“ (Elisabeth Elliot)

Dieser Eintrag soll auf keinen Fall depressiv oder demotivierend klingen, aber mir gehen im Moment so viele Gedanken durch den Kopf, dass ich die einfach einmal niederschreiben muss… Ich wuerd gerne mit jemanden reden, aber hier schlafen schon alle und in Deutschland sind auch noch alle am schlafen. Ich fuehle mich einsam… Ja, so richtig einsam. Damt will ich keine Mitleid erregen…Ich weiss ganz genau, dass das nicht wahr ist. Ich hab mich noch nie so gefuehlt, wie heute abend. Das macht mir Angst, weil ich in so einer Situation noch nie war und mich machtlos fuehle. Ich denke, dass das vielleicht genau der Ort ist an dem Gott mich haben will… „My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.“ (2.Cor 12:9) Ich will, dass Gott mir das in dieser Situation zeigt. Ohne ihn, weiss ich nicht, wie ich es in den naechsten Tagen und Wochen schaffen soll. Auf der einen Seite ist diese Ungewissheit und Einsamkeit so schwierig, aber ich weiss, dass Gott mich dadurchtragen wird… Je mehr ich darueber nachdenke, will ich das Gott mich weiterhin herausfordert zu kaempfen… ich will nicht so bleiben, wie ich bin! ich will, dass er mich immer wieder neu herausfordert, sodass mein Leben in allen Bereichen immer mehr ihm aehnelt. Und wenn das bedeuted, dass ich durch eine solche Zeit gehen soll, dann will ich das tun.

„For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways“, declares the LORD. „As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways nad my thoughts higher than your thoughts.“

Ich will das mir Gott seinen Weg immer wieder zeigt! Ich will nicht in den „Wegen der Welt“ verlieren und was die Welt sagt, ist richtig zu tun. Es ist so leicht, sich mit weltlichen Zielen zufrieden zugeben. Aber was bedeuten diese Ziel mit Blick auf die Ewigkeit? Was bringt meine zweite Ausbildung den Menschen, die verloren sind und Jesus nicht kennen? Was bringt es all den Menschen die von Jesus noch nie was gehoert habe, dass ich Sonntags zwischen 3 verschieden Gottesdiensten auswaehlen kann? Ich will nicht sagen, dass all diese Sachen schlecht sind! Ich glaube nicht, dass wir uns fuer diese Sachen, mit denen uns Gott gesegnet hat, schlecht fuehlen muessen, aber ich frage mich was ich damit fuer Gottes Reich tun kann. Das Gott mich errettet hat, ist alleine aus seiner Liebe und Gnade passiert, und nicht weil ich irgendwas getan habe. Ich will, dass andere Menschen von dieser Liebe erfahren. Ich will das nicht fuer mich behalten. Dafuer ist die Zeit, die wir auf Erden sind einfach zu kurz. So viele Gedanken, die mir im Moment durch den Kopf gehen und was auch immer, das konkret fuer meine Situation bedeuted, ich will bereit sein ALLES fuer SEINE Wege aufzugeben! Ich will nicht zulassen, dass solche Gefuehle, wie ich sie im Moment fuehle, mich von meinem Ziel abringen.

„However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me – the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace.“ (Acts 20:24)

Worship

I really liked that!

I killed a cat…

… es ist echt schrecklich… ich hab vorhin eine Katze ueberfahren Wahrscheinlich war sie..oder er…noch eine „kitten“ und voller Leben. Naja jetzt nicht mehr… Aber warum rennen die Tier hier auch Nachts immer quer ueber die Strassen? Bei 80 kmh kann ich da auch schlecht bremsen. Naja, jetzt ist sie tot!

How Can I Keep From Singing?

by Chris Tomlin

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And though storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise?
How can I ever say enough?
How amazing is Your love?
How can I keep from shouting Your name?
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You see me through
And sing the songs You give

How can I keep from singing Your praise?
How can I ever say enough?
How amazing is Your love?
How can I keep from shouting Your name?
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And I fall down again

I can sing ’cause You pick me up
Sing ’cause You’re there
I can sing ’cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer

I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I’ll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

How can I keep from singing Your praise?
How can I ever say enough?
How amazing is Your love?
How can I keep from shouting Your name?
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart
I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart
I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing
I can sing

Family Man

Sind nicht die Filme die bei bei Walmart fuer $5 findet, die Besten? Cinderella Man, Simpsons, Cool Running und Family Man sind seid heute in meinem Besitz. Hab heute mit Family Man angefangen… Ich liebe diesen Film! Es ist so cool zu sehen, was wirklich wichtig im Leben ist und worauf es ankommt…Cool running kommt als naechtes Einer meiner Lieblingsfilme!!!

Rennen

Ich liebe es zu rennen! Manchmal fuehl ich mich wie dieses kleine Maedchen, dass es gar nicht mehr abwarten kann beim Sportfest die 800 Meter zu rennen… Rennen hilft mir meine Gedanken zu ordnen und Dinge wieder in der richtigen Perspektive zu sehen! Ich liebe es meinen iPod laut aufzudrehen und meine Lieblingslieder 10 mal hintereinander zu hoeren. Bei 1ner Stunde rennen wird mir das aber ab und zu zu krass und ich wechsel auch mal die Lieder. Im Moment ist Cupid Shuffle mein absolutes Lieblings Rennlied! Am 9. November renn ich den San Antonio Marathon…27 miles (ca.44km)…bis dahin werd ich wohl noch so einige Lieblings-Rennlieder haben….Ohne die richtige Musik geht da gar nichts…Und die Dusche nach dem Rennen ist immer die Beste ueberhaupt…das werd ich jetzt auch mal machen….:]